“Help me, Obi-Wan Kenobi, you’re my only hope,”

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These iconic words of our beloved Princess Leia are forty years old today. On this day in 1977, George Lucas gave the world Star Wars, now dubbed A New Hope. I know, I’m only 24, I haven’t been enjoying Star Wars for 40 years..but I have enjoyed it pretty much my whole life. Being introduced to this beautiful space fantasy is actually one of my earliest memories; I remember being on the phone with my aunt Adelaida, and she was describing the cover of the VHS tape she had just bought me. “It has Darth Vader’s face, which is all black and shiny,”. I was so excited. And this was 1995…I was just 3 years old and had no idea who or what Darth Vader was, but I believe the excitement in my aunt’s voice is what made me so excited. I don’t think I necessarily made this conclusion back then, but I think it must have been meant a lot to her to share this with me. A movie that she saw at least 17 times in theaters (she would often say 100 but who knows), a series that she’s adored so much…I think it was important for her to share it with me. Looking back on it now, she must have been so elated when I first watched the movie and loved it.  And I’m forever grateful for her introducing me to this world that I so adore, that I’ve loved all of my life, that inspires me and soothes me daily. And of course I still have the VHS with Vader’s “all black and shiny” face:

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And I’m pretty sure she bought me the other two, Empire Strikes Back and Return of the Jedi, either at the same time or shortly after, and I loved those two dearly as well…actually, it was Return of the Jedi that was constantly in my VHS player; it’s always been my favorite.

Alas, today is about 40 years of A New Hope! Again, I can’t really attest to those 40 years, but during my personal lifetime, Star Wars has always been there. From crushing on the beautiful Luke Skywalker played by Mark Hamill, to also crushing on his father, Anakin, played by Hayden Christiansen…to Diego Luna and Oscar Isaac, the first Latino men to lead in Star Wars. To the women I idolize, starting with the late Carrie Fisher, to her mother played by Natalie Portman, and to my current baes, Rey and Jyn Erso played by Daisy Ridley and Felicity Jones, respectively. I adore so many of the characters and relationships this saga has given us, and I’ve always loved them above everything else. I appreciate lightsaber battles and spaceships more now, but as a kid, the battles didn’t really excite me (because obviously I was a stupid child). But really, it was always Luke and Leia that cemented my attachment to these stories.

The only thing that’s really changed about my love of Star Wars is how I’ve been able to express it. When I was a kid, there weren’t many other kids I got to talk about it with. As the years went on,  I was ridiculed by my peers for loving it and letting it show. First, I believe, it was for wearing the beautiful watches that Burger King sold at the time of the theatrical release of Revenge of the Sith, the final prequel/what we all thought at the time would be the last Star Wars film we would ever receive. They were all double-sided and just the greatest watches ever. My favorite was the Darth Maul side of the Phantom Menace watch.

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I mean, it probably didn’t help that some days, I would wear all six watches at once on my tiny 13-year old arms, but still…no regrets.

The other item was a black t-shirt from Hot Topic with the beautiful Hayden Christiansen as Anakin Skywalker on it…I miss that shirt. Sadly, it is long gone…it didn’t fit me anymore anyway.

And yet, with my massive love for Star Wars, that was all I really ever had, aside from a t-shirt or two from the little boys section when I was little. It’s been amazing to see Star Wars fashion grow over the years, particularly for women, and while some people (like my parents) might think I have gone overboard with all of my t-shirts, sweaters, dresses, skirts, jewelry, etc….I don’t care, I’m just happy that all of these fabulous apparel has been available to me and I can’t help but buy so much even when I’ve probably already made up for lost time (when no such amazing things were available)  And I don’t care if you don’t like that I love Star Wars so much…I’m not that shy and vulnerable child anymore. I wear my love and express every way I can and want to. But back to the fabulous galactic wardrobe I have now…this is from under a year ago but it doesn’t reflect even my current collection, but just to give you an idea about how much Star Wars fashion I’ve acquired over the last few years or so:

If I had to guess without actually going through my closets right now, I’d say my collection has AT LEAST definitely doubled.

Guys, it’s not my fault…I just love this series and the characters so much and I love to express it!

Also I love dressing up as the characters, naturally…here is me as the ultimate rebel princess a few Halloweens ago:

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I think that’s just a testimony to how meaningful this franchise is; I’m dressing up as a character that I was introduced to when I was 3 years old in my adulthood, and I definitely plan on continuing to do so (whether it be at comic conventions, Halloween parties, or even just random days where I want to feel regal yet super badass and fabulous).

Happy 40th Anniversary, Star Wars!! May you continue to inspire all generations to come!

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“The strongest stars have hearts of kyber,”

I’ve watched Rogue One 4 times this week, and sobbed every time. I love it so much. The special features on the Blu-Ray combo pack are pretty awesome as well, although I wish there was a directors’ and/or cast commentary on the film…oh well. I’ll just keep watching it as it is and crying at the tragedy and beauty of it all. And yes, of course I got a special edition…I originally wasn’t terribly impressed with the exclusives offered by Target, Wal Mart, or Best Buy, but…my boyfriend happened to surprise me with the Best Buy Exclusive Steelbook combo pack! The only reason I didn’t preorder that one myself was because I had decided I wanted to have Jyn, Cassian, Bohdi, Chirrut, and Baze, basically my main bae heroes, on my cover….meanwhile, the steelbook has the Death Troopers on the front. Don’t get me wrong, they’re super cool, but…they’re kinda evil? But they’re also walking through the water on the beaches of Scarif so that’s kinda beautiful enough to make up for their evilness. Also, regular stormtroopers are on the back cover also walking through the water, and I’m just so fond of that particular image. It’s oddly glorious to me:

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In addition to my Rogue One addiction, Star Wars Celebration has been happening since Thursday in Orlando, Florida, and I have tried to keep up with most of the panels by watching them stream live on YouTube or later when I can. And of course the panels are also making me emotional, especially when they mention our beloved Carrie Fisher. If you haven’t seen this already, here is the tribute video they played for her when Celebration began this week:

Just beautiful…yes, yes this also made me sob.

Yesterday, they continued to honor Carrie Fisher’s legacy in Star Wars by showing the path that her Princess Leia led for the future of women in this franchise in the Heroines Panel. It such a magical panel…first, they had a sizzle reel of all of the heroines of Star Wars:

I highly recommend watching the entire panel if you’re as obsessed with these powerful ladies as I am!

I think the main point of the panel, though, was to promote a new series of animated shorts called Star Wars: Forces of Destiny focusing on Rey, Leia, Jyn Erso, Sabrine Wren, Padme, and of course AHSOKA TANO!!!

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In addition to these shorts, they are releasing these “adventure dolls”, which are basically action figure Barbies. They’re fantastic and I need them and I’m sad I didn’t have these as a kid. But hey, little girls now will finally have badass Barbie-like dolls that are heroines! Also, seeing Daisy Ridley (Rey), Ashley Eckstein (my darling Ahsoka Tano), and Tiya Sircar (Sabine Wren) react to their new adventure dolls was just beautiful: (And yes, I took these from various Instagram stories/various official Disney/Star Wars accounts on there)

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Also they all look absolutely fabulous and beautiful but I’m particularly in love with Tiya’s darling outfit. She’s always quite stylish, though. AS THEY ALL ARE!

Speaking of my beautiful idols, I finally revamped one of my walls…it was tough to take down my ginormous The Breakfast Club and mini Pee Wee’s Big Adventure posters, but I’ve had them up at least since I was like…8? They’re still in my favorites but it was simply time for a change. I still have them; I want to use them in the future when I have my own house, perhaps for a massive movie theater room. Anyway, look at my new mini-mermaid mural:

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Are you surprised I’ve centered my mermaid mural with Ahsoka, or rather, Mersoka by Lorna-ka, one of my favorite artists?! If you know how obsessed with Ahsoka I am, you’re probably not surprised at all. But she is joined by other mermaids!

On the left, the first smaller print is of Belle, Aurora, and Rapunzel as mermaids, and the print underneath is classic mermaid, my favorite mermaid and princess, Ariel! Oh, and she’s being held by my favorite prince/her true love, Eric. I purchased those two on Etsy by the lovely Elisa Garcia Bonilla/Aasilee, and naturally I have other pieces by her already on my walls.

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On the right of Mersoka, I have a beautiful mother and daughter mermaid set also from Etsy. Becuase Ahsoka is facing this way, I wanted her to face her dear old friend, Padme. Underneath Padme, I have her glorious daughter Leia. Guys, I can’t get it to show in pictures but up close they both have golden sparkly accents! Because Aleigh Watford is awesome! She has so many original mermaids on there but naturally I had to start with her Star Wars mermaids.

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So, underneath my mermaid mural…I just have more Star Wars!

I had talked about needing this art before, and now it’s mine!! Everyone looks so beautiful and perfect. I especially love this version of Ahsoka; I saw on Twitter that this artist hasn’t even watched Clone Wars or Rebels but simply loved the way Ahsoka looks. How could she not?! But anyway, I just love this artist’s style. Jealous? Get your own by Mariana Avila right here!

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And this I’ve wanted this since  before Rogue One even came out! Being in love with both Oscar Isaac and Diego Luna, and being Latina/Hispanic myself (yes, I consider myself both), this piece means so much to me. It’s aptly titled Latinos in Space! and it’s also by Mariana Avila!IMG_2126

Being a woman and being Latina, both of these pieces mean so much to me, and it’s honestly so inspiring and heartwarming to look at them every day now.

“Bright young women, sick of swimming. Ready to stand.”

HAPPY INTERNATIONAL WOMEN’S DAY, EVERYONE!! I mean, I try to celebrate the women who influence me every day, but still; it’s nice to have an official day for it.

To the women who raised me -my mom, my grandma, and my aunts- I love them so dearly and I just hope they know how much I appreciate them. To my best friends- what is life if we’re not together to laugh and cry, to remind each other of our values and strengths, to enjoy our favorite things yet embrace all of our differences? You all inspire me every day, and I just hope I can do the same for you.

To the heroines I’ll never meet, such as Rosa Parks and Carrie Fisher, among so many others…your legacies will continue to inspire for so many generations to come. Speaking of women I’ll never meet…HAVE ANY OF YOU SEEN HIDDEN FIGURES?! If not, please do so. It’s an excellent film about the incredible true story about how genius African American women got us into space. While it was beautiful, I left the theater angry that I was never told this story before. As was my mother, who was never told the important details of this historical event in school. I mean, it only happened in 1963, so I can somewhat see how just a few decades after, predominantly white schools wouldn’t think to teach kids that (because they were still racist, unfortunately). But fast forward to me…I graduated high school in 2010 and I was never taught this story of genius women getting us into space. It makes me so sad that so many Americans and I have only just learned of these extraordinary women, Katherine G. Johnson, Mary Jackson, and Dorothy Vaughan. And the women who played them were all amazing in their portrayals; Taraji P. Henson, Janelle Monae, and Octavia Spencer.

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If this was out on DVD/Blu-ray, I would absolutely be watching it right now in honor of International Women’s Day…but it’s not, so I watched Mulan. I have to appreciate my fictional heroines as well, okay?!

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If you’ve read any previous post of mine before, you were probably able to glean that I’m a bit of a Star Wars fan. So naturally, I have to mention my favorite Star Wars heroines:

Jyn Erso, from Rogue One…has everyone seen this yet? Is it okay to say yet? WARNING, SPOILERS: she gave her life so that the Rebel Alliance would have a fighting chance against the Empire by obtaining the plans to the Death Star. I adore her so much. Felicity Jones is just perfection.

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Hera Syndulla, Rebel pilot from Star Wars Rebels that is also badass and all in for the cause.

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And Sabine Wren, also from Rebels, badass Mandalorian who used to be an Imperial Cadet, now specializes in being awesome and blowing things up.

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Former Queen, turned Senator of Naboo, turned mother of the greatest twins ever, Padme Amidala. I’ve come to appreciate her more in recent years.

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Princess Leia, her badass daughter who leads the Rebellion against the Empire.

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Rey, who lived her life thinking she was a nobody until one day the Force awakened with her.

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And of course, my darling Ahsoka Tano, former Padawan of Anakin Skywalker, forever a badass.

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Also, please enjoy this gorgeous picture of my two idols, Ashley Eckstein, voice of Ahsoka Tano, and Daisy Ridley, who plays Rey:

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Also….here is me dressing up as Leia, Ahsoka, and Rey:

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OH, and I have all of the Star Wars ladies I mentioned above in Funko Pop! form, of course:

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GUYS. I know I have so much Star Wars stuff, but I also need this beautiful piece by Mariana Avila:

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Everyone looks so awesome in this…I NEED THIS ON MY WALL LIKE LUKE NEEDS TAUNTAUN GUTS ON HOTH.

I know it’s almost over, but again…HAPPY INTERNATIONAL WOMEN’S DAY!! Tell the women in your lives how much you appreciate them!!

“So this is how liberty dies…with thunderous applause,”

I know it’s been a while…you must think I haven’t made any nerdy purchases lately, but you’re wrong! But guys…it was a necessary order, I swear! You see…I started a new job back in December; it’s an office job and I was told to wear “business casual”. I’m almost running out of my plain (not Star Wars, Disney, or rock and roll) attire because for 6.5 years, I didn’t have to think about what I wore to work because I always had a uniform; I only shopped for expressive attire to wear while out with friends and such. I need more “normal” clothes. And I do have some nice outfits but honestly, they’re almost too nice; I feel overdressed sometimes wearing cute clothes I bought at Express several months ago just because I thought they were cool looking. Also, we have an animal shelter, and I get to play with cats and dogs almost on the daily, so I shouldn’t even wear my nicest clothes (although it’s really not the end of the world if a blouse gets dirty). Actually, all of that kinda pushes away any justifications I had for ordering this sweater and more…but oh well. YOLO, as the young folk say!

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This gorgeous dolman was naturally inspired by the ever fashionable Padme Amidala:

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My goodness, that Senator was fabulous even in the morning, just fresh out of bed in Attack of the Clones. I have ordered this with no regrets; I can use it for Cosplay, but also force it into my work wardrobe by pairing with a simple white top (tee or tank, doesn’t matter) and jeans!

And here’s another one that I’ve yet to order but I need it because it is also both perfect for Cosplay and daily/work wear:

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And yes, it’s supposed to be oversized; that’s how Padme wears it:

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I can’t find a picture of it but I’ve always loved the way she looks in the actual scene of the movie…Anakin is crying and flipping out because he went all mass-murderer after seeing his mother’s final breath, and Padme is trying to be compassionate and understanding. Naturally, Anakin just shuts her out, but she looks too precious and adorable with those huge sleeves; there’s something about her standing there with these barrels on her arms that is simply quite endearing to me. I’ve always loved this outfit, so yeah…I NEED this sweater. I haven’t ordered it yet, but I can’t resist it…it would look super cute with skinny jeans, or leggings (which is what I plan to wear it with on just a regular day).

And there is yet another piece by Elhoffer Design that is taunting me, but I think I could only get away with it doing Cosplay at a comic convention…

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I love Padme, but everybody knows that the original space fashionista is her own daughter:

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Sadly, in the society we live in today, I simply cannot wear a cape on a regular day to work. I can dream that perhaps someday it will be acceptable, but I know right now it’s really not. Damn you, Lando, and your Cloud City capes! To be fair, it could also be considered a long vest; it was designed to suit either preference. It could possibly work with a white long-sleeved top and pants/leggings, if we’re going with the vest label. Elhoffer Design named this piece the Galactic Princess Cape, though, so that’s what I shall refer to it as.

Alas, it’s not bad to buy things just for Cosplay; one of the many ways adult nerds spend their money. So, I need it. It’s gorgeous, and I’ve never seen anyone cosplay this look of Leia’s at the conventions I’ve gone to. Also, it’s not the first Elfhoffer Design piece I’ve purchased only for costume/cosplay purposes:

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I dressed up as end-of-Force-Awakens Rey and it was quite lovely. I mean, I’m out of shape, but I still felt super cool and badass. I happened to get the vest and armwarmers during the first wave, but now I think it’s on its’ last run so if you also want this look, don’t hesitate and get it now!

So, I need the Galactic Princess Cape, right?! It seems to be a pantsuit-ish ensemble Leia wears underneath it, but if I get this cape, I would just try to find a long-sleeved burgundy dress and have my own look that way. Or, a burgundy tunic and matching burgundy leggings! I don’t know. I just don’t think I’m going to find anything exactly like what’s supposed to be underneath. Or does this mean I shouldn’t get it?! ……NAH! I’m probably going to get it.

I need these items…I’m excited for the dolman I’ve already ordered to arrive! I think it will be a while, though. But I don’t care; I just want it! And all of these Padme inspired pieces by Elhoffer Design are just the beginning; there are more designs to come! There goes my wallet… #worthit

That’s not the only Star Wars fashion I’ve indulged in lately, though.

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I recently ordered this tee from Poprageous. I knew when I first saw it that I needed it because 1) this is a gorgeous and badass image of Carrie Fisher and 2) I #resist the bigoted, sexist, idiotic asshole that is now the POTUS and 3) at the Wizard World comic convention I went to this past August, Carrie Fisher was asked what she would do if she had the Force in real life at her panel and she said “get rid of Trump”, so I know in my heart she would approve of this image and all of the posters that women made for the Women’s March Protest that happened just the day after this new Hitler came into office:

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I don’t usually get political but today, I can’t afford to ignore it. It’s on my mind daily, what rights that bastard is going to infringe upon next. But I have hope…on January 21, I had honestly never felt more proud to be an American woman than on that day. We are motivated by our idols, both historical and fictional, and together we will #resist.

“I’ve got gadgets and gizmos a plenty, I’ve got whozitz and whatzits galore”

I know, I like talking about my stuff a lot…but I collect some pretty interesting things, if I do say so myself. Especially Funko Pop! figures…guys, it’s not my fault. I went to Hot Topic while at the mall recently and had to go there because 1) there’s not one super close to me so I take my opportunities to peruse when I can and 2) I knew I had a $5 dollar reward from them expiring soon. I look at the wall of Funkos for like 7 minutes because I see Ezra, but I’m looking for Hera, and if they have one character from Star Wars Rebels in stock they’re bound to have another, right?! Finally, I had to ask an employee if they had any in back or if they had their entire stock pretty much out. At first, she made it seem like everything they had would be out, but then she had me describe the character I was looking for. “With the green things on her head? I’m pretty sure I’ve seen her before,”…she then got a ladder and looked behind the ones that were higher on the shelves. It reminded me of my retail days, that still aren’t very far behind me, when a customer would be looking for a DVD or CD and it wasn’t out on the floor but our system said we had in it stock; I was always determined to find it, even if that involved digging in the warehouse through boxes fellow employees never bothered putting out, for whatever reason. I digress; she did not find them on the shelves, but had told me she was almost certain she had seen the one I was looking for. A few minutes later, she came out with my little Hera and I was so happy. I went to check out, and of course the cashier has to tell me that the Funko Pops are all 3 for $30 (again, I’m familiar with this game). I politely declined, and asked him to look up my rewards that I had earned. “Actually, you have $10! Now you may as well get two more for the 3 for $3o,”. Damnit, he had me there. I was sold. Obviously I had to do it. See, I told you it wasn’t my fault! I was clearly swindled! (or easily swayed…)

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I still need to go see Rogue One again, because apparently  “General Syndulla” is called upon over the intercom at some point. With that in mind, I happened to pick up a general, a princess, and then one very special woman who was both.

The very first outfit we saw her in the first Star Wars and the first outfit we saw in the most recent Star Wars. Also, it’s interesting to see how Funko Pop’s style has changed over the years, side by side.

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Oh wait, did I show you what I got for Christmas from people I love extremely dearly?!

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I already had the exclusive Target version of Cassian Andor, but now I have Jyn Erso. I adore them both. My little heroes!

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Look at my little Rebels!!! I had to have Hera and Sabine together, but then I wanted to have Ahsoka with Hera as well; Hera was the only one to have contact with “Fulcrum” before she revealed herself to the rest of the Ghost crew. Also, they’re both my favorite fictional species: Torgrutas and Twi’leks are both gorgeous creatures.

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Sorry not sorry for the blurry picture…they were in the middle of bobbling together; who am I to stop that?! Their beautiful lekku, bobbling in the air, as free as can be.

But, back to the original Star Wars Rebel:

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I’m still mourning Carrie Fisher, so I just keep buying Princess Leia stuff. I was buying Star Wars Tsum Tsums for my niece to accompany these adorable Star Wars Little Golden Books I got for her at Barnes and Noble when I couldn’t help but add one for myself. I got the classic/original Princess Leia along with Han Solo for my niece, and the Empire Strikes Back edition, “Planet Hoth Leia” for myself.

Also, I got this Elite Jyn Erso figure like two days before I saw Rogue One (one of my very last employee purchases at my old job; I had to do it), and she looks so right with my darling Ahsoka:

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Oh wait…I almost forgot about the princess I got!

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Here is the Hot Topic Exclusive glittery version of Ariel’s classic pink dinner dress! Ariel is my favorite princess, as I have mentioned before, so of course I had to get this exclusive of her. She’s my only Disney one; I’m still trying to keep my collection mostly Star Wars, but now I want more Disney characters to join her. For now, she resides by Jaylah (Star Trek Beyond) and Spider-Gwen.

Speaking of Ariel, I finally got to see the Broadway version of the Little Mermaid!!

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It was a gift to me from my boyfriend’s parents! And it was beautiful and phenomenal!! I’ve always loved Ariel’s sisters, and their 60’s-esque number “She’s in Love” blew me away. And singing and dancing Prince Eric?! He’s already been my favorite prince and my dream man, but somehow he just got more perfect!! I highly recommend this show!! Mostly to Disney and Little Mermaid fans, but it’s amazing whoever you are.

“To me, she’s royalty.”

“I read the news today, oh boy…”

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I’m absolutely devastated. Carrie Fisher passed away today after suffering a heart attack on a plane last week. I’m honestly heartbroken. I don’t even know what to say…I wasn’t expecting to have to say goodbye to another one of my idols this year. A woman I’ve admired all of my life; when I was little, for her various roles (of course Star Wars but also others like the less appreciated classic The Burbs), and as I’ve been an adult struggling with mental illness, she’s become even more of an inspiration to me as she’s been so open with her own struggles. I adore this woman, I always have, and I always will. This year has honestly been terrible, from my beloved David Bowie, to Gene Wilder, Prince, George Michael, (among many others, I know I’ve discussed those as well) and now Carrie Fisher. Also, the tragedy that was this year’s presidential election…I’m devastated. I’ve never witnessed such an awful year in my young life. There’s been some excellent films, like Star Trek Beyond and Rogue One, and I finally got out a new job that isn’t retail that I like so far…so it’s not completely hopeless. But I’m still devastated by the election and all of the bigotry and hate that apparently still thrives in my country. And now, I’ve lost my Princess Leia, my General. We all have. It’s comforting to know I’m not the only fan who has sobbed over the loss of this beautiful star, with all of the outpouring on social media I’ve seen today.

What’s even worse? I could have met her back in August at Wizard World Comic Con in Chicago. I was fortunate enough to get a seat during her panel and hear her speak while being in the same room with her, and I was maybe just like 5 feet away from her when she was doing autographs and pictures with other fans. I only didn’t choose to meet her at the time because I was trying to be financially responsible and not add to the credit card debt I had accumulated at the time. I have learned my lesson; I would really rather be poor for a little bit than miss out on what would turn out to be the only opportunity I would have to meet one of my lifelong idols. I still donned a Princess Leia-inspired outfit (dress by Her Universe, of course), and I was hoping she would notice me while signing autographs and posing for pictures, but she was too busy (which is fine. I wouldn’t want her to neglect her other fans). Not buying a photo op with her will forever be my greatest regret in life.

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I’ve been so busy with my old job, my new job, and holiday shopping and festivities, I haven’t even been able to talk about how much I loved Rogue One. And…SPOILERS AHEAD!!

I was crying at the end of the movie because of all of the tragic events, and then I was crying happy tears and jumping in my seat because the movie ended with Princess Leia receiving the plans to the Death Star, and even though it was slightly odd because it was a CGI Carrie Fisher, I still cried at the sight of her. Also, I’m so glad they didn’t just cast another actress for that moment; I know Carrie Fisher wouldn’t have been too happy about that. At that panel back in August, someone mentioned the new Han Solo movie and asked if she would like to see a similar movie for Princess Leia, and she seemed to hate that idea because she is the only rightful Princess Leia. And damn straight, she is. I have been wanting to go see Rogue One again because apparently I missed all of the Star Wars rebels Easter eggs/references, so I need to watch it again and take a closer look. Now, I’m just going to be sobbing even more when that very last scene comes up.

Let’s take a moment and just enjoy a snippet of my Leia collection:

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Picked this up at Wizard World by Bianca Roman-Stumpff.

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Only one out of my three Star Wars blankets…have you ever seen such a lovely blanket? I just haven’t put this Leia mermaid by Aleigh Watford up yet because she’s part of a mermaid art collection I’m working on.

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And let’s also just admire her:

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She seems like that super fun and playful youthful friend:

Princess Leia “Carrie Fisher”,C3PO “Anthony Daniels” Empire Strikes Back…:

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On Nov. 13, 1978, Harrison Ford and Carrie Fisher were taking a break from filming “The Star Wars Holiday Special” when a news wire photographer caught this cute moment.:

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Harrison Ford, David Prowse, Carrie Fisher, Peter Mayhew, Mark Hamill and Kenny Baker:

Also, we need to talk about how Kenny Baker and Carrie Fisher passed away the same year….Princess Leia is going up to Heaven to be with her little messenger, R2-D2.  One of my other Star Wars idols, Ashley Eckstein, posted this on her social media pages:

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Wait…admire her some more, and this time, smile:

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Okay, she’s not saying this line at this exact moment, but I love in The Burbs when she says to Ray (played by my also beloved Tom Hanks) “you were up at the crack of dawn watching a dog poop.”

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I could go all day….I’ll stop now. But it’s so sad. What makes me the saddest is that I truly believed she would be okay, that she was going to pull through just fine. I foolishly thought this year couldn’t get any worse. This is how I feel about this year:

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Nobody was ready for you to leave, General…

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“And the stars look very different today…”

“You say you want a revolution, well, you know…we all wanna change the world,”

Or, if you’re a rebel in Rogue One, you want to change the universe! I don’t know about you guys, but I already got my tickets for Rogue One for the very first showing EVER (at my theater…) next Thursday night! I AM ONE WEEK AWAY FROM SEEING ROGUE ONE AND I AM SO EXCITED! Naturally, I have been eating up all the press I can find for this film. I know so many fans are excited for Darth Vader, but I honestly care more about our new characters, especially our rebels. I know I’ve already talked about how I’m already in love with both Jyn Erso, played by Felicity Jones, and Cassian Andor, played by Diego Luna, but like…I can’t stop. The actors are so damn charming and lovely, and every time I watch the trailers I get emotional, and every interview makes me adore them even more. Especially this recent MTV interview. First of all, watch that and fall in love in love with them.

Or…honestly, just look at them:

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THEY ARE BOTH SO BEAUTIFUL, INSIDE AND OUT. First of all, Diego Luna is absolutely gorgeous and adorable. AND he’s now among the far too short list of the few Latinos to star in a Star Wars movie! It’s amazing to see Latinos in Star Wars; representation does matter! It makes me so happy! But just look at him. And Felicity Jones! I have so much faith in her for this role. Look at her; she put her little Jyn Erso action figure sitting down next to her on her chair!! How perfect and charming is that?!

And believe me, I’m also excited for the rest of the beautifully diverse cast of rebels, they’re all so unique and intriguing. And, as a huge Clone Wars fan, I’m so freaking excited for Saw Gerrera, played by Forest Whitaker! Does this pave the way for a feature film all about Ahsoka Tano?! I THINK SO!! At least maybe one day!! Speaking of Ahsoka…remember my magical moment at a comic convention I went to, where, dressed as Ahsoka Tano, I found the beautiful Black Series Ahsoka Tano action figure?! And just a few days ago, Saint Nick made a visit to my door because I left my shoes out and left a sweet bag of gifts. The bag was filled with candy, treats, pretty socks, and there was a sweet little card with money in it that said “for your Ahsoka Tano figure”. What a beautiful Christmas surprise!

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I know, I’m spoiled. Look at my beautiful Ahsoka collection now:

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Oh look, there’s my little Cassian Andor right behind my latest Ahsoka! So, back to Rogue One…let’s admire Jyn and Cassian one more time:

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God, they’re so cool. I can feel it. Also, Jyn rocks a hood so well. Much like the ladies of Star Wars before her. Let’s take a moment to appreciate that…

She doesn’t wear it for long in the movie, but look how tough and darling my favorite scavenger is. Just look at the rare hooded Rey:

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And, one of my favorite looks of Padme Amidala (even though she is pretending to be her own handmaiden in this outfit), followed by some of her other hooded looks:

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“It’s cold in space.”

 

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Since I’m merely going by the timeline here, my darling hero Ahsoka Tano looks amazing when hooded; I definitely want to cosplay these looks someday:

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I am missing at least one more look but I can’t find it…so it’s time to move on to the original Star Wars heroine, Princess Leia:

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Fun fact: When I decided I was going to don this original Princess Leia look for Halloween a few years ago, it was hard to find one with a hood attached. And I decided I needed that because I love that part of the whole look. I don’t know why anyone would even make this costume without a hood, it simply doesn’t make any sense!

I know, the men don hoods very well, too…but today is not their time to shine….

Okay, just one…and my favorite, my beautiful Luke Skywalker:

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And that’s all for now! Until I feel like appreciating hoods in Star Wars again…

 

 

“Somebody’s got to save our skins!”

Guys, I’ve finally been in the same room as the beautiful legend that is Carrie Fisher!! Three of my closest friends, my boyfriend, and I all went to Wizard World Comic Con in Chicago this past weekend, and it was awesome. The Question&Answer Panel with Carrie Fisher happened to be on Sunday, the day we attended, and we all couldn’t pass up the chance to listen to Carrie Fisher in person. It was so great; she was funny, silly, and ever charming and lovely. And of course, Gary Fisher was with her as well and he was adorable; at one point he just napped on the couch and turned around so we could all see that famous tongue hang out. I knew she was going to be there months ago, and contemplated buying a photo op with her at the very least, but eventually decided it was in the best interest for my wallet at this particular time not to. But next time she’s in Chicago…I’m not missing that opportunity again. Knowing I was already missing out on meeting her, it was awesome to still be in the same room with her and listen to her speak, and hours later we were also near where she was meeting people and I was like, maybe a few small cars in a straight line away from her. I wanted to snap her picture to prove how close I was, but naturally she was surrounded by convention employees watching everyone. I was also dressed as Princess Leia and I was really hoping they would let me in anyways…nope, didn’t work. But hey, here’s some of the shots I got during the panel:

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I wish I had gotten a closer seat or was able to actually line up and ask her a question. If I had the chance to speak to her, I would have apologized for the jerk who felt it was absolutely necessary to tell Carrie Fisher about his stupid child niece that saw the Force Awakens and at the end declared her disappointment that Han Solo died and that Princess Leia didn’t, because she “didn’t do anything”. Yes, that was it; that wasn’t even a question, which was the intention of the panel! I was so mad. General Leia herself took it like a champ and told a story of how recently  a little girl said “No, I don’t want to meet old Leia,” and how if she didn’t have a sense of humor she would be miserable. Moral of the story? Children are terrible and some people are just such major idiotic jerks. Like, how massively rude of that man!! But she must be accustomed to stupid crap like that; she knew how to respond to that without any hesitation. I would have been angry and would have followed up this man’s stupid story with “…where was the question? I thought I was here to answer your questions,”… But she shouldn’t even have to deal with this crap! SHE IS CARRIE FISHER. SHE IS OUR BELOVED PRINCESS LEIA, SHOW HER ALL OF THE RESPECT YOU HAVE, DAMNIT!! It’s like those jerks who pushed their uber-NRA views on Daisy Ridley resulting in her choice to leave Instagram; these beautiful, beyond talented individuals are not actually obligated to interact with us fans…don’t ruin it and spoil this treasure you have proved we don’t even deserve! There were other stupid questions Carrie Fisher put up with, but that was just the worst. I can’t believe that man. Why weren’t those questions pre-screened?! He did not deserve to speak to Carrie Fisher, let alone breathe the same air as her.

I’m still so angry…I really wish I was able to go up there after him and make up for that rude, idiotic mess. And again, I hopefully would have made her happy because I was dressed as Princess Leia! I wore a dress by Her Universe for Hot Topic that’s a bit shorter but it’s honestly too fitted and fancy-feeling to be casual, so a convention like this was just the perfect place to wear it.

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Yes, I did initially plan that outfit to wear when I would be meeting Carrie Fisher, but I stuck with it because Hallie decided she was going to be Princess Anna of Arendelle from Frozen, so naturally I had to be a princess with her. My boyfriend wore one of my Ahsoka shirts, Emily showed her Cap love, and my friend Jeff wore a Game of Thrones sweatshirt I didn’t understand (because I don’t watch it). We counted over 30 Suicide Squad/Margot Robbie Harley Quinn’s, and that was just from one day! I’m sure there were over 100 by the time the convention was over. I just want to be Ahsoka again…

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Alas, this was only my third convention; I plan on going to many more and Cosplaying as all sorts of Disney and Star Wars characters!!

Oh wait, I almost forgot my swag:

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We got free Captain America: Civil War buttons after picking up our tickets!

The adorable and sexy little pin-up-ish Princess Leia is from an artist I follow on Instagram and actually met her last year at Wizard World and bought super cute prints then as well! Her name is Bianca Roman-Stumpff, and does such delightful stuff. The Winnie the Pooh/Star Wars mash-up set I bought is actually for my aunt, who is a fan of both. It’s become a tradition now that I buy her a fun, unique little trinket when I go to these conventions because she’s largely the reason I’m so nerdy (she introduced me to Star Wars!). I want to get a little frame thing that will put them all together; I have no idea where she will put it but how could I resist?! I failed to grab that gentlemen’s business card but I believe his name is Dan Dougherty. He also had other Winnie the Pooh mash-ups, like the Avengers and Nightmare Before Christmas, and even all of the Doctors from Doctor Who, which I almost got but that was only available as a larger print. I haven’t given them to her yet but 1) I doubt she’ll see this before I give them to her and 2) I’m like 98% she’ll laugh and think they’re insanely adorable.

Another successful comic convention…why didn’t I start going to these sooner?!