“…and we’ll keep on fighting ’till the end,”

That’s what I have to tell myself when all but one of my squad is gone and I’m up against Sith Lord Count Dooku and the Jedi he appeared to have brainwashed into joining him:

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Anyone else addicted to the Star Wars mobile game Galaxy of Heroes?! No?? Let me tell you a little bit about the game that has consumed much of my free time and spit on any chance I’ve had to do anything productive.

First of all…it should come as no surprise to anyone that knows me well or has even looked this blog at least twice that I started playing the game to play as my darling Ahsoka Tano. I knew the game had both Clone Wars-era and Rebels-adult “Fulcrum” versions of the character and I thought it would be cool to have my squad have two Ahsoka’s! This goal took a while, though. First, I had Luke Skywalker, a Clone Sergeant, Chewbacca, an Ewok, and a Nightsister (from the Clone Wars), and a few more obscure characters I was less excited about. Within my first week or so of playing, they had a special event to get “shards” (which you need a complete collection of to get a character) for Ahsoka Tano (Fulcrum), so naturally I played a few rounds, then saw that the shards and items necessary for her for only $9.99 and I’ve never bought anything for a mobile game faster. This is her today, just a few weeks later, leveled up like a badass: IMG_2430

(And yes, you can still collect shards after getting the character to…power them further? I haven’t done it yet so I’m not entirely sure how it works.)

And while the Clone Wars Ahsoka Tano had already been a part of the game before this Fulcrum version came around, it took me a while after getting this Rebels Ahsoka before finally obtaining her younger self. Before I had her, I many battles where my adult Ahsoka faced her teenage self. It was weird yet not unfamiliar to be at war with myself;

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But now I have them both and it’s awesome. I wish I could have a whole squad of lady Jedi. But I just recently unlocked Luminara Unduli (mostly from the Clone Wars, but also seen in the background in Attack of the Clones) and I have two Nightsisters now, along with Hera Syndulla from Rebels, so I have some pretty kick-ass ladies on my crew. Before I acquired Luminara, I had this battle the other day which was almost an all-ladies squad, but I needed my tie fighter pilot this particular round:

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My Ahsoka’s are so beautiful together, aren’t they?!

Although I love this addictive RPG, it makes me do terrible things sometimes…you see, some battles, like Cantina and Galactic War battles, you can mix everyone together, dark side or light side, it doesn’t matter. But in the Dark Side and Light Side battles, your team members have to all be from one side. I’ve just so happened to collect more Light Side players, which is awesome for me, seeing that it is my true alliance, but I like some Dark Side characters too! I’m desperate for Darth Maul, Asajj Ventress (Count Dooku’s apprentice from the Clone Wars), and Captain Phasma…but right now I just have a variety of stormtroopers, a royal guard, and a few Nightsisters (who are sisters of Asajj Ventress so I keep calling them “Ventress” in my head even though I know it’s wrong). So while playing these Dark Side-only battles, I had to battle Ewoks:

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Guys, do you even know how terrible it is to hear an Ewok scream in terror as they fade away from the Universe? Play some Dark Side battles and you’ll also be traumatized. Look at them clutching their sides with pain. Heartbreaking.

It’s much easier to hear the pained cries of stormtroopers and other baddies like Boba Fett…especially Boba Fett…I love kicking his ass. Here’s my Fulcrum Ahsoka doing so, whispering “overrated” within her battle grunt:

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Alas…it’s a fun game. Here is my collection of heroes as of a few hours ago:

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Yes, that’s my beloved Rogue One fallen hero Bodhi Rook on the bottom line! And of course I have Zeb, even though when I click on him his face still freaks me out, and  Hera Syndulla as I’ve already mentioned. Moments after I took this picture I finally got all of the shards I needed to get Hera’s beautiful boyfriend, Kanan Jarrus:

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I haven’t even been able to play him yet but I’m so excited I have almost all of the Rebels crew now!! Just need Sabine Wren and Ezra Bridger, and you bet your bottom I’m working collecting all of those shards.

Aside from my Clone Wars and Rebels favorites, naturally my dream team would include Rey, Jyn Erso, Princess Leia, Cassian Andor, Poe Dameron, and I mentioned earlier Darth Maul, and then my last team picks would include Plo Kloon, and Aayla Secura…oh, and Jedi Knight Anakin Skywalker, but he would be a priority like Rey or Jyn…but the thing is, I could have had him already….up until last week, they had a similar sale like they had for Ahsoka (Fulcrum), only he was $20, probably because his particular character requires more shards. Every day I would look at the shop deals and contemplate it, thinking it would be so cool having Snips and Skyguy reunited, and also having a super sexy Jedi on the team; they use his Revenge of the Sith look for the character in this game. Every day I thought about it…and was like “no, Rita, THAT’S RIDICULOUS, IT’S JUST  A SILLY GAME ON YOUR PHONE, YOU CAN SPEND THE TWENTY DOLLARS ELSEWHERE”. But then, in its’ final hour, I told myself “BUT YOUR CLONE WARS AHSOKA’S POWERS GET BETTER WITH HIM ON THE SQUAD YOU NEED SEXY ANAKIN OMG AND IT’S LITERALLY ONLY $10 MORE THAN YOU SPENT ON CLONE WARS AHSOKA YOU GOOF” and this happened to be while I was home on my lunch hour and because I told myself to mull it over, I missed the deadline while I was eating and now I FOREVER LIVE IN REGRET FOR NOT HAVING ANAKIN SKYWALKER ON MY SQUAD.

I will get you someday, Anakin. SOMEDAY.

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Guys, don’t make the same mistake I did; just buy the characters you love when the opportunity arises, otherwise their shards are practically nowhere to be found and you’ll feel like this every day:

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“Help me, Obi-Wan Kenobi, you’re my only hope,”

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These iconic words of our beloved Princess Leia are forty years old today. On this day in 1977, George Lucas gave the world Star Wars, now dubbed A New Hope. I know, I’m only 24, I haven’t been enjoying Star Wars for 40 years..but I have enjoyed it pretty much my whole life. Being introduced to this beautiful space fantasy is actually one of my earliest memories; I remember being on the phone with my aunt Adelaida, and she was describing the cover of the VHS tape she had just bought me. “It has Darth Vader’s face, which is all black and shiny,”. I was so excited. And this was 1995…I was just 3 years old and had no idea who or what Darth Vader was, but I believe the excitement in my aunt’s voice is what made me so excited. I don’t think I necessarily made this conclusion back then, but I think it must have been meant a lot to her to share this with me. A movie that she saw at least 17 times in theaters (she would often say 100 but who knows), a series that she’s adored so much…I think it was important for her to share it with me. Looking back on it now, she must have been so elated when I first watched the movie and loved it.  And I’m forever grateful for her introducing me to this world that I so adore, that I’ve loved all of my life, that inspires me and soothes me daily. And of course I still have the VHS with Vader’s “all black and shiny” face:

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And I’m pretty sure she bought me the other two, Empire Strikes Back and Return of the Jedi, either at the same time or shortly after, and I loved those two dearly as well…actually, it was Return of the Jedi that was constantly in my VHS player; it’s always been my favorite.

Alas, today is about 40 years of A New Hope! Again, I can’t really attest to those 40 years, but during my personal lifetime, Star Wars has always been there. From crushing on the beautiful Luke Skywalker played by Mark Hamill, to also crushing on his father, Anakin, played by Hayden Christiansen…to Diego Luna and Oscar Isaac, the first Latino men to lead in Star Wars. To the women I idolize, starting with the late Carrie Fisher, to her mother played by Natalie Portman, and to my current baes, Rey and Jyn Erso played by Daisy Ridley and Felicity Jones, respectively. I adore so many of the characters and relationships this saga has given us, and I’ve always loved them above everything else. I appreciate lightsaber battles and spaceships more now, but as a kid, the battles didn’t really excite me (because obviously I was a stupid child). But really, it was always Luke and Leia that cemented my attachment to these stories.

The only thing that’s really changed about my love of Star Wars is how I’ve been able to express it. When I was a kid, there weren’t many other kids I got to talk about it with. As the years went on,  I was ridiculed by my peers for loving it and letting it show. First, I believe, it was for wearing the beautiful watches that Burger King sold at the time of the theatrical release of Revenge of the Sith, the final prequel/what we all thought at the time would be the last Star Wars film we would ever receive. They were all double-sided and just the greatest watches ever. My favorite was the Darth Maul side of the Phantom Menace watch.

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I mean, it probably didn’t help that some days, I would wear all six watches at once on my tiny 13-year old arms, but still…no regrets.

The other item was a black t-shirt from Hot Topic with the beautiful Hayden Christiansen as Anakin Skywalker on it…I miss that shirt. Sadly, it is long gone…it didn’t fit me anymore anyway.

And yet, with my massive love for Star Wars, that was all I really ever had, aside from a t-shirt or two from the little boys section when I was little. It’s been amazing to see Star Wars fashion grow over the years, particularly for women, and while some people (like my parents) might think I have gone overboard with all of my t-shirts, sweaters, dresses, skirts, jewelry, etc….I don’t care, I’m just happy that all of these fabulous apparel has been available to me and I can’t help but buy so much even when I’ve probably already made up for lost time (when no such amazing things were available)  And I don’t care if you don’t like that I love Star Wars so much…I’m not that shy and vulnerable child anymore. I wear my love and express every way I can and want to. But back to the fabulous galactic wardrobe I have now…this is from under a year ago but it doesn’t reflect even my current collection, but just to give you an idea about how much Star Wars fashion I’ve acquired over the last few years or so:

If I had to guess without actually going through my closets right now, I’d say my collection has AT LEAST definitely doubled.

Guys, it’s not my fault…I just love this series and the characters so much and I love to express it!

Also I love dressing up as the characters, naturally…here is me as the ultimate rebel princess a few Halloweens ago:

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I think that’s just a testimony to how meaningful this franchise is; I’m dressing up as a character that I was introduced to when I was 3 years old in my adulthood, and I definitely plan on continuing to do so (whether it be at comic conventions, Halloween parties, or even just random days where I want to feel regal yet super badass and fabulous).

Happy 40th Anniversary, Star Wars!! May you continue to inspire all generations to come!

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“It surrounds us and penetrates; it binds the galaxy together,”

May the Force be with you on this lovely May the 4th! I mean, the Force is with me all the time, because every day of my life is Star Wars Day, but this little holiday is still fun, seeing what tributes people conjure up and, my favorite part, how many new items and sales various websites will have! I’ve actually already participated in one of those online sales because they started early yesterday!

In case you didn’t know, Hallmark has this adorable line of tiny stuffed animals called Itty Bittys. They’re kinda like Funko Pop! in that they’re collectible and of pretty much every cool franchise you can imagine, such as Disney, Marvel, DC, Star Trek, other cartoons such as Scooby Doo…just so many delightful things. I only have Star Wars ones at the moment:

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And shortly, thanks to a May the 4th special, I will have Sabine Wren and Ahsoka Tano from Star Wars Rebels!! They went on sale exclusively on Hallmark.com yesterday, just a day early. My girl Ahsoka is super popular, and Sabine is getting up there as well, so I didn’t hesitate to order them when I first saw that they were finally available.

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THEY LOOK SO CUTE!! I CANNOT WAIT FOR THEIR ARRIVAL! AND THEY WILL LOOK SO BEAUTIFUL WITH MY ITTY BITTY REY, LUKE, OBI WAN KENOBI, C-3PO, AND THE LONE JAWA!

These collections just happen by accident, okay?! But like….I still want Princess Leia and there’s also a Poe Dameron…because I need them…for reasons…

Speaking of collections….look at my Funko Pop! collection when I started it like maybe a year ago:

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And look at it as of today:

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And the ones on my desk at work (complete with a tiny and curious kitten):

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While I should be trying to be frugal, I’ve already began my Star Wars May splurge with the Itty Bittys and my order of this month’s Funko Star Wars Smuggler’s Bounty box…so who knows what will happen with other sales I will see this week… But guys…I need this box. It’s the 40th anniversary of Star Wars/A New Hope this year, and naturally A New Hope is the theme for this month’s box, so it’s clearly going to be even more special! I’m hoping for a cute Leia Pop! shirt or something…I’m pretty sure this is the Pop! it will come with:

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That’s pretty damn adorable, if you ask me. I can’t wait to see what else in this special anniversary box!!!

I would like to write this tremendous piece about how much Star Wars means to me and what my favorite moments are, but sadly, I just don’t have the time. I barely have time to write this now…and quite frankly, I’m only half sure why I even bother; I know nobody cares about this blog but me, but also, it’s fun to do these little projects for myself and focus on the things I love for a little while. I have been trying to organize this site a bit more, though; I’ve compiled everything I’ve written (I think?) on this site about Star Wars and put it all in a folder called…Star Wars!! Same for Disney, Marvel, Rock and Roll, and a few other things. So, if you’re really that bored, you can delve further into this obsession that’s enriched and consumed my life by checking out that particular folder!

“Welcome home.”

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Yup, I am watching Rogue One again…and yes, that means I am crying again as well. I just adore my beautiful heroes.

Speaking of heroes and feeling at home, I went to C2E2 (Chicago Comic & Entertainment Expo) this past weekend! It honestly does feel quite welcoming, walking into a convention center surrounded by people dressed as characters from Star Wars, Marvel, DC, Disney, and every other beautifully nerdy thing you could possibly imagine. It’s also surreal and awesome to know that you’re in the same building as many of the people who give these characters life, such as Stan Lee and badass actors like Mike Colter (Luke Cage and Jessica Jones) and Millie Bobby Brown (11 of Stranger Things), just to name a few that graced us with their presence this weekend….not that I met any, but still; when you’re walking up the stairs to get some lunch and you happen to see the top of Stan Lee’s gray haired head in the distance…it’s pretty damn cool.

My friends and I got there a bit later than planned due to traffic, and we already had planned to leave before the evening due to our various plans, so I didn’t feel like I got to see everything I wanted to/there was to see. Also, it didn’t help that I waited in a massive line just for a frappucino from Starbucks…but I was craving caffeine and my head hurt. But anyway, I still ended up feeling fabulous dressed as Senator Padme Amidala in Attack of the Clones. My friend Hallie was dressed as Agent Peggy Carter and she was super popular! Both of our outfits were from two of my favorite clothing companies, Elhoffer Design and Her Universe! Here’s a few shots of us just standing around some comics (Emily is just her beautiful self; no costume necessary):

I paired the beautiful oversized Padme sweater with a $12 light blue maxi tank dress I found at Forever 21! And yes, I drew a beauty mark on my top left cheek…Natalie Portman has one; I had to! Although…mine was a bit bigger than hers, but like, I’ll just contribute that to this technically being my Mexican Padme look ;). I watched Attack of the Clones earlier in the week to confirm aesthetics for this look. She hardly wears this outfit but it’s one of my favorites, as I have mentioned before. And my hair is just not long enough or even fabulous enough to get anywhere close to her hairstyle here, so I just went with my normal hairstyle. After all, this is supposed to be a low-key day on Anakin’s newly discovered step-family’s moisture farm…but Padme is never completely casual. She’s always glamorous, even if she’s trying for a subtle look.

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I didn’t pick up a whole loot of things, but I’m pretty pleased with what I did pick up:

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I already had a Poe Dameron corgi and Captain America golden retriever from this awesome artist named Naomi Romero, and now I have a Rey collie and a Kylo Ren…black retriever of some sort to join the others at my office!

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The adorable and sexy Poe Dameron “I can fly anything” button was an impromptu gift to me from Hallie, so unfortunately I have no idea what artist made it. If you know, please tell me! I feel bad not giving credit!

And the even sexier portraits of Kanan & Hera from Star Wars Rebels and Bucky Barnes/Winter Soldier from the Captain America films are by Risa Hulett. It took me approximately 4 seconds to decide I needed this perfect depiction of Kanan and Hera. She had a deal that was cheaper when you bought 2 prints, so I decided to get another and I was actually going to get this gorgeous Princess Leia she had, but then Bucky won me over. Sebastian Stan is just a beautiful man and she nailed this piece (get your mind of your gutter…BUT WOULDN’T ANY OF US BE SO LUCKY IF WE DID).

On the way out, I saw two people coming in for a droid builders competition. This one kind gentleman let take a picture with his beautiful R2-D2:

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Well, that’s all, folks!

“The strongest stars have hearts of kyber,”

I’ve watched Rogue One 4 times this week, and sobbed every time. I love it so much. The special features on the Blu-Ray combo pack are pretty awesome as well, although I wish there was a directors’ and/or cast commentary on the film…oh well. I’ll just keep watching it as it is and crying at the tragedy and beauty of it all. And yes, of course I got a special edition…I originally wasn’t terribly impressed with the exclusives offered by Target, Wal Mart, or Best Buy, but…my boyfriend happened to surprise me with the Best Buy Exclusive Steelbook combo pack! The only reason I didn’t preorder that one myself was because I had decided I wanted to have Jyn, Cassian, Bohdi, Chirrut, and Baze, basically my main bae heroes, on my cover….meanwhile, the steelbook has the Death Troopers on the front. Don’t get me wrong, they’re super cool, but…they’re kinda evil? But they’re also walking through the water on the beaches of Scarif so that’s kinda beautiful enough to make up for their evilness. Also, regular stormtroopers are on the back cover also walking through the water, and I’m just so fond of that particular image. It’s oddly glorious to me:

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In addition to my Rogue One addiction, Star Wars Celebration has been happening since Thursday in Orlando, Florida, and I have tried to keep up with most of the panels by watching them stream live on YouTube or later when I can. And of course the panels are also making me emotional, especially when they mention our beloved Carrie Fisher. If you haven’t seen this already, here is the tribute video they played for her when Celebration began this week:

Just beautiful…yes, yes this also made me sob.

Yesterday, they continued to honor Carrie Fisher’s legacy in Star Wars by showing the path that her Princess Leia led for the future of women in this franchise in the Heroines Panel. It such a magical panel…first, they had a sizzle reel of all of the heroines of Star Wars:

I highly recommend watching the entire panel if you’re as obsessed with these powerful ladies as I am!

I think the main point of the panel, though, was to promote a new series of animated shorts called Star Wars: Forces of Destiny focusing on Rey, Leia, Jyn Erso, Sabrine Wren, Padme, and of course AHSOKA TANO!!!

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In addition to these shorts, they are releasing these “adventure dolls”, which are basically action figure Barbies. They’re fantastic and I need them and I’m sad I didn’t have these as a kid. But hey, little girls now will finally have badass Barbie-like dolls that are heroines! Also, seeing Daisy Ridley (Rey), Ashley Eckstein (my darling Ahsoka Tano), and Tiya Sircar (Sabine Wren) react to their new adventure dolls was just beautiful: (And yes, I took these from various Instagram stories/various official Disney/Star Wars accounts on there)

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Also they all look absolutely fabulous and beautiful but I’m particularly in love with Tiya’s darling outfit. She’s always quite stylish, though. AS THEY ALL ARE!

Speaking of my beautiful idols, I finally revamped one of my walls…it was tough to take down my ginormous The Breakfast Club and mini Pee Wee’s Big Adventure posters, but I’ve had them up at least since I was like…8? They’re still in my favorites but it was simply time for a change. I still have them; I want to use them in the future when I have my own house, perhaps for a massive movie theater room. Anyway, look at my new mini-mermaid mural:

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Are you surprised I’ve centered my mermaid mural with Ahsoka, or rather, Mersoka by Lorna-ka, one of my favorite artists?! If you know how obsessed with Ahsoka I am, you’re probably not surprised at all. But she is joined by other mermaids!

On the left, the first smaller print is of Belle, Aurora, and Rapunzel as mermaids, and the print underneath is classic mermaid, my favorite mermaid and princess, Ariel! Oh, and she’s being held by my favorite prince/her true love, Eric. I purchased those two on Etsy by the lovely Elisa Garcia Bonilla/Aasilee, and naturally I have other pieces by her already on my walls.

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On the right of Mersoka, I have a beautiful mother and daughter mermaid set also from Etsy. Becuase Ahsoka is facing this way, I wanted her to face her dear old friend, Padme. Underneath Padme, I have her glorious daughter Leia. Guys, I can’t get it to show in pictures but up close they both have golden sparkly accents! Because Aleigh Watford is awesome! She has so many original mermaids on there but naturally I had to start with her Star Wars mermaids.

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So, underneath my mermaid mural…I just have more Star Wars!

I had talked about needing this art before, and now it’s mine!! Everyone looks so beautiful and perfect. I especially love this version of Ahsoka; I saw on Twitter that this artist hasn’t even watched Clone Wars or Rebels but simply loved the way Ahsoka looks. How could she not?! But anyway, I just love this artist’s style. Jealous? Get your own by Mariana Avila right here!

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And this I’ve wanted this since  before Rogue One even came out! Being in love with both Oscar Isaac and Diego Luna, and being Latina/Hispanic myself (yes, I consider myself both), this piece means so much to me. It’s aptly titled Latinos in Space! and it’s also by Mariana Avila!IMG_2126

Being a woman and being Latina, both of these pieces mean so much to me, and it’s honestly so inspiring and heartwarming to look at them every day now.

“Everybody wants to be a cat, because a cat’s the only cat that knows where it’s at,”

Being the huge Disney lover I am, I kinda watch Disney movies all the time. They make me happy and help me unwind. So tonight, it’s the Aristocats! I love this movie so much, and it’s so underappreciated. I’ve talked to quite a few people lately that have told me they’ve never even seen it!! I’ve always been more partial to the animated films with dogs and/or cats, so I may be slightly bias, but regardless, it’s a hilarious and adorable movie. Even if you’re never seen it, you’ve probably heard or seen this iconic moment referenced at some point in your life from the adorable kitten, Marie:

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And then there’s several other moments that make me smile:

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Also, Duchess and Thomas O’Malley are #relationshipgoals:

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God, I love this movie; so charming, sweet, and darling. Also, I’ve been particularly fond of kittens lately…these past few weeks at work, we’ve had one-month old kittens in the office, and I adore them. They’re so tiny and uncoordinated, it’s so adorable. While I prefer dogs, that doesn’t mean I can’t enjoy these adorable babies! And I have to take advantage of these opportunities when I get them. This past August, I was cat-sitting for my friend’s parents when I had a really bad allergic reaction. I had grown up around cats, though, so it came as an incredibly devastating shock; it must have developed only in these recent years. But last month, we had a different lot of kittens at work, and one of my coworkers suggested I wait to take allergy medicine because sometimes people are only allergic to adult animals. Thankfully, I seem to be one of those people, because I’ve been absolutely fine with all of the kittens!

I’m trying not to get attached to these little cuties for several reasons, but it’s so hard…but I’ll enjoy these moments while I can. They love to nap on my lap, and I can still actually do my job because they seem to enjoy being underneath my desk while I type. But like, I still haven’t had allergy tests done by a doctor, so there’s hope?! I don’t know.

Anyway, so…I’ve just had kittens on my mind lately so anytime someone posts a cute cat thing on social media, I usually click it. Just this morning, I saw someone post an article about a farmer who found strange-looking kittens. Of course they’re adorable anyway, but still, he knew something was up. He eventually discovered that there were indeed a breed of wild cats; Pallus cats, or Manul cats.

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I was curious about them, so naturally I did some online research. Turns out they’re smaller than lions and tigers, but they’re still wild hunters (my main inquiry was whether or not they would eat me if I encountered one…and I don’t think so??). This is what the adults look like:

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Wait a minute….

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This cat looks familiar….

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Oh snap, I think I’ve got it….

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These short, stout wild cats remind me of the tall, combative Lasat, Zeb Orrelios from Star Wars Rebels!!

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And to think, I was proud of myself for realizing that Zeb was based on some classic concept art by the legendary Ralph McQuarrie when I stumbled upon on Pinterest one day:

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Yup, this Zeb ancestor was actually supposed to be Chewbacca:

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Pause. Does anyone else find this concept art terrifying?! I’m so glad that Chewie ended up looking the way he did…and to be honest, I’ve never been super fond of Zeb’s look. I love his character, but his eyes always kinda freaked me out…but now that I know he’s clearly part Pallus/Manul cat, I think I actually like his look now.

Speaking of Star Wars Rebels, I just have to say…I was so happy with my Star Wars Rebels themed Funko Smuggler’s Bounty box this month! Just look at some of the goodies:

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I adore this shirt with the whole Ghost crew on it!! Also, now I have a Pallas/Manul cat patch ;).

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That sparkly orange Chopper is a Hikari Mini, and it’s so perfect; I was hoping I would get him in orange! (FYI, the R2-D2 next to him is another Smuggler’s Bounty Exclusive is not actually dirty; he was from the Jabba’s Palace themed box, so this is the poor droid back on Tattoine, serving up drinks for dirty gangsters).

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Aaaaaand shirtless, sexy Darth Maul….I love it. He’s my favorite Star Wars villain so naturally I was super excited to finally have him in Funko Pop! form. There is one out there that is Phantom Menace-era designed, and that one’s cool too, but I love this one more.

Speaking of Maul…his time has finally come, and it was oddly beautiful. SPOILERS AHEAD IF YOU ARE NOT CAUGHT UP ON REBELS… Obi-Wan Kenobi struck him in a surprisingly short duel, but it was fitting. Kenobi doesn’t need to be flashy anymore; those days are long behind him. But my favorite part had to be that Kenobi actually held Maul in his last moments…just beautiful. And Maul asking about the Chosen One?! LUKE?! AHHH!!! And of course, Maul is still Maul, with a lingering hope for revenge renewed in the hope that is Luke Skywalker.

As for the season finale…I haven’t watched it yet. Guys, it’s not my fault, I don’t have Disney X D and I didn’t have access to my typical source this weekend. But I will…but honestly, I’m more excited for the whole season to be released on DVD/Blu-ray; I enjoy watching them all together.

 

“I’m free, I’m free, and freedom tastes of reality,”

I’ve been at my new office job for almost four months now, and I can’t express nearly enough how much nicer it is. I worked in retail for 6.5 years, and most of it felt like Hell to me; after all, I was Customer Service the whole time. It’s insane how much less stressed out I am on a daily basis, and I credit being away from retail as at least 93% of the reason why. I mean, I haven’t completely escaped the terror that is dealing with the general public; I work for Animal Control and I answer the phones and work the front desk for rabies registration tags sales and whatnot. And people still get angry about policies they don’t agree with or even understand sometimes, but it’s nothing compared to being yelled at and disrespected daily  processing returns and other services at a major electronics store. I kid you not, it was truly on the daily. I hate saying the name, but perhaps for the sake of your understanding…it was Best Buy. And it was just the worst, being yelled at by someone who insists on returning their used laptop they purchased six months ago when the return policy was merely 15 days…seriously, all the time. It wasn’t just ridiculously out of policy returns, it was just everything…people would get mad when I asked to see their ID even when it was their own writing on their own credit card that instructed me to do so. I could go on. I could honestly write an entire memoir of the shitty times I had there, but that’s far too painful. Sure, maybe you’re thinking I’m crazy…it’s merely strangers yelling at me for things that are out of my control, I shouldn’t take it personally, right?! Well, as a person who has Generalized Anxiety Disorder (and was also technically diagnosed with social anxiety as well but meh, I think that got better naturally over time), it’s just remarkably difficult. I had so many panic attacks at work while people yelled at me. I would sometimes have breakdowns and go hide and cry somewhere because I was just so stressed out and tears were the only release I was able to do. Alas, therapy and anti-anxiety medication helped out a lot with that after I realized my reactions weren’t exactly normal and got the help I needed…but that doesn’t mean I was absolutely immune to it all. It killed me inside every day to take people’s shit. Which is why I had been trying for so long to get out and I finally did and I’m just so much happier. And guys- I know I usually write about fun pop culture stuff, but I simply feel obligated to share even a snippet of my retail experience as a public service announcement. Perhaps people don’t realize how unnecessarily shitty they are treating the person in uniform behind the counter, because for whatever reason, you see us as less human in those moments. But then..some people are just assholes and that’s never going to change. But shit, I’m going to try.

Retail Robin.:

One of the things that has kept me sane over the years (besides medication and therapy) has been the Retail Robin memes. I would see them on Pinterest all the time and they would just make me laugh, partly because they’re insanely accurate. Also, it was comforting to know that I wasn’t the only one suffering while working in retail; it’s quite universal. Which is also sad, but still, I’m taking any positives I can here. So I present to you…all of the Retail Robin memes that I have related to 110% (and I know my former coworkers would confirm these as well) (and yes, the uniform one above is included in terms of accuracy):

Retail robin

Retail Robin:

Retail Robin.

So much truth:

Haha, oh this is so accurate:

I DON'T KNOW EVERYTHING:  (do you know how many products are sold at Best Buy?! TELEVISIONS, COMPUTERS, CELL PHONES, CD’S, MOVIES, VIDEO GAMES, ACCESSORIES FOR THOSE THINGS, ETC….it’s a ginormous store, okay?!)

But really... #bestbuycustomerservicelife:

But really. This has happened more times than it should have...:

PLEASE DO. NEVER COME BACK.

Oh this happened so often when I was a cashier

HELL YES:

Retail robin:

Have I pinned this already? Oh well. IT IS JUST SO FREAKING TRUE:

Bahaha:

But they don't care...:

This actually happened to me today!!! It has before, but usually I ask again. Today I just stuck it in the bag.:

I've had to deal with this too many times...:

I want to say this every time I work!!!:

Retail Robin:

WORK IN RETAIL FORGET WHAT BEING TREATED RESPECTFULLY FEELS LIKE | Retail Robin:

Literally had this issue yesterday, woman was all huffy and puffy...yes, it's my fault you drove an hour away to do something you can't actually do.:

I hate you are working on the holidays But you're in here shopping...... | Retail Robin (1000% accurate these past 3-4 Thanksgivings)

Retail Robin:

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So much truth.:

Very true. Retail Robin.:

This happens too often...:  (this is a shout-out to all of the managers and supervisors I had over the years that just give in the customer’s entitlement at fear of losing money…at the expense of making the level-line employees look like jackasses to the customer)

Retail Robin, providing you truth on the daily. Can also be substituted with "leaves work 4 hours early anyway":  (not every manager I had did this, but too many did…)

Maybe they don't hear me sometimes, but it's still awkward and unpleasant.:

Yeah, being understaffed isn't a thing at all....:

Please oh please control your kids at the store.:

Retail Robin:  (again, these are all COMPLETELY ACCURATE)

Retail Robin. How I feel when this happens at work.:

Customer actually nice to you Feel compelled to give them everything for free as a reward | Retail Robin:

Retail robin.:  (lol SEE?! I mentioned this exact scenario earlier. Literally happened all the time.  I remember this one cranky man literally shouted at me because of it and was then aggressively handling his credit card afterwards)

retail robin.:  (lol except the money-hungry, pushover managers did and will continue to)

Customer smiles sweetly and tells you to have a nice day almost burst into tears | Retail Robin | Meme Generator:

Luckily this hasn't happened terribly often, but still....:

Retail Robin - "you just lost a customer!" oh no, we'll miss you so much:

Retail Robin:

Happens so often it makes me sick:

"you should have a sign saying that!" there is one | Retail Robin | Meme Generator:

An old man nearly killed me when this happened the other day. And when I say kill, I mean slay any spirit I might have had.:

customer service:

Preach.:

retail robin:  (SOOO TRUE especially during my first six months as a cashier. Pressure from management, try to appease management, customer gets annoyed and angry)

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Retail Robin - "Wow, that customer was so correct and proved me wrong. I'm so glad I can learn how to do my job from people that have never worked in this store." Said no one ever:  (the first part is so small…here is what it says: “WOW, THAT CUSTOMER WAS SO CORRECT AND PROVED ME WRONG. I’M SO GLAD I CAN LEARN HOW TO DO MY JOB FROM PEOPLE THAT HAVE NEVER WORKED FOR THIS STORE”)

Haha story of our lives at the bookstore! People and their financial aid issues...:

like cuss me out because walmart only has motorized wheelchairs and not push ones. Im sorry .5mph is too fast for you..:

Seriously. I've heard "it's so beautiful out, hopefully you will get out soon!" when I have four hours left so many times.:

Retail Robin:

This trip down memory lane has been both hilarious and painful…and that’s just from Retail Robin. Here are just a few other memes that aren’t from Retail Robin that also perfectly depict my every day experiences and feelings I had while working at Best Buy.

so true:

SO ACCURATE. #bestbuycustomerservice:

#bestbuycustomerservicelife:

So true:

My patience is truly fading

Lol

Ah, this has happened a lot recently...:

Amen!:

I deliberately alter my standard of customer service according to how polite the customer is.:

Working in retail would be fabulous if it weren't for the customers.:

So they’ll keep their life story for their autobiography: | 24 Reasons Why Everyone Should Be Forced To Work Retail For One Day:

How I feel at the end of every day after work:

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So they’ll know never to tell this joke again: | 24 Reasons Why Everyone Should Be Forced To Work Retail For One Day: (SO MANY TIMES, GUYS)

Half of the time that I answer the phone at work....:  (this mostly applies to whenever I answered the phone there)

^^^THIS:

Okay, I think I’ve made my point now…it’s still so comforting these memes exist, though. So painfully true, man.

In conclusion…things get frustrating sometimes. Maybe you didn’t read the receipt before you came back into to return stuff…actually no, that’s entirely your fault, I have no sympathy there as a fellow shopper. But yeah, I’ll admit, sometimes there were circumstances where the customer was right/deserved an exception and they’re either super nice and I want to do all I can to help them- or they’re assholes like most people and then I don’t want to do anything special for them. But people, just try to be decent. It’s all I’ll ask of you. I’m only 24 and I’m already bitter af towards humanity because of 6.5 years dealing with the crap above and more. It’s not that I don’t like hanging out with people…it’s just, I don’t trust the general public and I will pretty much expect nothing but the worst from people unless they prove me otherwise. But it’s so rare. I truly relate to this Jonathan Byers quote from Stranger Things:

Charlie Heaton as Jonathan Byers in Stranger Things:

I know, it’s kinda shitty to be so pessimistic, but I’ve only become this way from experience. I still have like a smidgen of hope…but it tends get smaller rather than bigger.